The Diary of Ruth Bryan - 1829-1830

The Narrated Puritan

July 19th, Sabbath.-During the past week, I have, I trust, been led to see a little more of the nature of the Christian warfare, and daily taking up the cross, than ever before. It appears to me now, to consist not merely in abstaining from those outward transgressions which are obvious to the view of others-but stedfastly resisting, in the strength of the Lord, those inward corruptions which are daily and hourly striving for mastery- and, also, in endeavoring to deny and subdue those sins, which, from habit and constitution, are as dear as a right hand, or a right eye. This is, indeed, a cross which we ought to be carrying- the moment we lay it down, and ALLOW ourselves in any carnal indulgences, or sinful pleasure-that moment we bring guilt upon our souls, and lose that sweet peace, and serenity of mind, which is only found in reconciliation to, and communion with God.